NABABALIW NA KO. SRSLY.
I know I shouldn't be stressing myself about this lovelife of mine cause I'm still young and everything.
So there's this guy. His name is Windell. A friend of my bestfriend, Ina, and bestfriend of Ina's boyfriend, Tien. He was introduced to me through text by Ina last Sunday, October 23. We were texting and he asked me if we can be more than friends. I was like, what? We only knew each other for hours and he's asking me na agad these things. So sabi ko, ewan. The next day he was apologizing about how he acted the previous night kasi daw nakainom sya (which I know naman). After that, di na sya ganun nagpaparamdam sa text. And I felt a little bit attached na. Naiinis na ko nung hindi sya nagtetext. I know, ang bilis ko ma'attach.
So I was thinking. I did my part na. Tinetext ko sya kahit di sya nagrereply. Inaantay ko yung matagal nyang reply. Kailangan pa ba ako pa talaga yung mag-eeffort? Napaisip lang ako ngayong gabi eh. Naguguluhan na kasi yung isip at puso ko.
Next story: Kirby. Whom was mention on my previous post. I like him naman eh. His story goes like this. Last sem, classmates kami. It started as tuksuhan sa room then I had a crush on him. We texted for hours and eventually, naging close kaming dalawa. It came to the time na na-fall na ako sa kanya. One day, there was a gathering at his lolo's house and he was drinking Tanduay Ice. Two bottles. We were texting and I was watching a movie at the same time. Natatagalan ako sa reply syempre. Then he said "Sige nood ka na muna. Text mo na lang ako pag hindi ka busy." (Ohgreat. I still remember his text.). So hindi ko muna sya tinext. After the movie we started texting again. It came to the point na si Liza na yung topic. Liza is the girl he likes back then. Sabi niya "Naiipit lang naman ako kay Liza eh. Matagal ko na kasi yun hinihintay na mag-aral dito. Kung wala lang yun dito niligawan na kita.". I was shocked that time. Tas biglang binawi nya. Sabi "Hoy ano yang mga sinasabi mo. Ikaw ah.". Tas yun. After a few minutes sabi nya "Di na ko lasing. Inaamin ko gusto ko si Liza.". Days passed and nagkausap sila nang aking good friend na si Indi about dun sa nangyari. He said daw na 'mas pipiliin nya sa ngayon si Liza.'. Ouch. That hurt. Oh wait, that words still hurts. Then nawala na yung asaran sa classroom and I started moving on. We texted each other pa din and I really thought nawala na din yung feelings ko sa kanya. Until yesterday. He told me nga na 'lagpas kaibigan' na ang turing nya sa akin. Hindi ako makapaniwala. Si Liza yung gusto nya eh. For years. Since 4th year high school until last semester nung talagang sinukuan nya na si Liza.
Oh. He told my bestfriend Hershey nung mga last day nang 1st sem na natatakot daw siya manligaw sa akin kasi madaming magagalit. Who? My friends daw. Alam kasi nung iba yung about kay Liza. Kaya yun, natatakot daw siya.
Okay what should I do? I was talking to Giemil a while ago. He said na kung gusto daw ako ni Windell, magtetext daw yun at magpaparamdam kung gusto daw ako nun. May point naman siya eh, di ba? Pero di ko ma-kwento yung about kay Kirby kasi sabi niya 'sana daw wala muna maka-alam about dun sa nalaman ko.'.
Alright people. Help me. :/
Thanks for reading though.